December 30, 2004 - 3:28 pm
i just got off the phone with my mom and boy oh boy, can i tell you how much i'm looking forward to my wedding? yikes. i really was, until i spoke with her. when i told her that cornelius didn't belive in god she nearly had a heart attack. why get married then? why have children then? boy, she had a lot of questions. but she ended our conversation like she always does: "i'm praying for you". now i can't stop thinking about everything she said and i feel like just eloping...it is the easiest way after all. after being apart from my parents for so long, it's easy to forget how much like a child they make me feel.
yeah, so why do i want to have a wedding?