July 29, 2002 - 11:23 pm
today has been exasperating. lots of work got done on the bl site and there was too much talking cornelius way. i feel drained. i hope he understands there will be no ray of light as far as a relationship is concerned. i hope. i hope. i hope. i also hope that the p.y.t. doesn't call me tonight and ask me if we can get back together. i am completely drained of emotion. i cannot shed a tear. i cannot laugh with gusto. i just want to vomit.
how long is one more week???