June 09, 2002 - 10:06 am
i haven't seen the p.y.t. since i walked him to the bus stop thursday morning. i am embarrassed to say that i miss him. we spoke on the phone later that same day, but since then we keep missing each other. he calls and i'm never home. we spoke briefly this morning and i'm starting to feel those sorts of insecurities that come when you start to become involved with someone on more than just a physical level. it's been a long time since i've felt these feelings and i don't like them. i like having control over my emotions. i can tell myself rationally that i should be taking a "wait and see" attitude. he's young, he's in school, he's a bit worried about being in a relationship and dating someone a decade older. and i too feel the same way. i have my worries. but i also feel excited and giddy and i can't wait until we can see each other again.
tonight is the white stripes. i'm looking forward to it. i will wear a skirt and knee socks. a button down shirt and a tie. i'll ride my bike with randy and kyla. it will be fun but i can guarantee that we will hate the crowds. annoying boys who listen to modern rock radio. grrrrrrr. i also will come home right after the show and panic over my wardrobe cuz i have a job interview the next morning at 10:30 am. ack. another thing to worry about.
but the day is early. i will do yoga and some ab work. i will drink coffee and eat my yoghurt. i will make a sock monkey for the p.y.t. as it is his birthday tommorrow. i will be as bright as the sun. hahaha. on a side note, i just got back my marks from vfs and not that they matter in the scheme of things, but i got a 96% overall. and they also refunded back my damage deposit. whooo!