November 06, 2001 - 7:01 p.m.
i cannot tell you how good i am feeling! i'm not going to question things because i know that i could easily fall back down into sadness. all it could take is a word, a memory, a sound.
i have decided not to call ryan. really this time! it is my resolve and i'm happy about it. why should i let him bring me down? talking to him makes me feel bad so i'm not going to do it.
i really, really wanted to go see stereo total and momus at the starfish room last night. i made all the way to the skytrain station and then turned back for home. it was already past 11 o'clock and i could feel a cold coming on. i knew i had made the right decision, but when i heard that the show was amazing all i could do was slap myself on the forehead. duh. i really hope i don't get sick.
school was good today. it felt like first term again when the learning curve was steep. this term feels a little too slack and i don't have the energy to create work on my own. i actually played around with pro-tools and recorded some stuff. it was better than i had expected. when i came home imade a yummy butternut squash and lentil soup for dinner and i'll soon be off for a visit with kristen.
distractions are good. hip hip hooray!